#makes sense she cried tbh a few days ago my dad was making fun of op and my mom defended it saying

[mistninja]

My mom cried watching luffys "I still have my friends" scene 👍 I cried too ofc 👍

[purplesurveys]

1230

When was the last time you felt like “getting into someone’s pants”?  Way back last year.

What is your favorite energy drink, if you have a favorite at all?  I find energy drinks nasty.

Would you have kids with the last person you kissed?  That wouldn’t be possible even in the literal sense.

Do you know someone who threatens to kill themselves?  Before.

Would you ever completely dye your hair the color green?  Yes, but I would opt for a darker shade rather than a bright or neon one.

Have you ever been in a long-distance relationship before?  I have not. Thinking about it, I’m pretty low-maintenance so I could probably handle it if I ever find myself in that situation, as long as I’m invested enough in the relationship and my partner.

What is your favorite food to eat around Christmas?  I like anything my family prepares really, but I definitely go for lumpia first if I see a whole container of it.

Do the people in your town speak like rednecks?  No and I’m not sure if we have an equivalent for that here.

When was the last time you cried happy tears?  Like a week ago when the Permission to Dance video came out. The ending when everyone was taking off their masks and smiling was really heartwarming.

How liberal are you?  Enough to make most of my relatives uncomfortable.

Would you mind living near large predatory animals?  Yes. I’ve lived in gated villages all my life so it will take a lot of getting used to.

Have you ever experienced altitude sickness?  I don’t think so. The ‘worst’ I’ve experienced is just feeling pressure in my ears and having weakened hearing whenever we drive up mountains; it takes a while before mine do the popping thing and I get my normal hearing back.

What’s your biggest priority right now?  To be consistent at improving at my job and making fewer mistakes as I go. I shared this with my boss recently and she told me not to worry too much as I’m doing better than I think I am and that the mistakes I beat myself about have actually been small and fixable ones, but the perfectionist/workaholic in me just refuses to be reassured lol.

If you’ve stayed overnight in a hospital, how did you entertain yourself?  The last time this happened, public wi-fi was still mostly a myth so I had to contend with A LOT of forced napping just to make the time pass by. I didn’t have a phone either, so my experience was extremely dull and boring.

Are your hands unsteady?  They’re not surgeon-level stable but I think they’re fine for the most part.

Do you listen to a lot of mainstream music?  I used to until I got into BTS. I haven’t really listened to any other artist since getting into them back in April lol.

Do you think you’re pretty?  Some days.

Have you ever added someone you don’t know on Facebook?  Yeah, a few work contacts like bloggers whose names I recognized but have never talked to/engaged with.

Do you have dirty pictures in your phone?  Nope.

Have you ever looked up porn on the internet?  Yes. I have my on-and-off phases when it comes to porn though and these days I don’t watch a lot of it.

Would you ever shoot someone right in the face? In a case of self-defense where I was clearly trying to be killed, that's right where I would aim. But otherwise, of course I wouldn't. < Sounds about right. But holy shit that sounds like it would look so gross.

Have you ever sold drugs?  I’ve never been around drugs ever.

Did you ever try cutting yourself?  It was a coping mechanism many, many moons ago.

Who’s the last guy you texted?  It was a - surprise surprise - delivery guy who needed directions again to my house.

Who do you know that wears the most make up?  I’m not sure, but then again most people I know don’t really put on makeup these days because lol Covid and stay-at-home orders??

Do any of your friends have kids?  None of my friends do but I know several acquaintances and people from high school who’ve already given birth.

Have you ever been tied up?  Yeah.

How many times have you been cussed out?  Nearly everyday as a teenager.

Are you anyone’s first love?  I think?

Have you ever had an out-of-body experience?  Nope.

Do you have more than one personality?  Nope.

Do you prefer gory horror films or the psychological ones? Psychological ones for sure, but I don’t mind gore as well as long as it’s fun to watch and that it’s not too corny.

Do you have a favorite YouTuber or do you not watch much YouTube?  I haven’t watched a lot of YouTubers these days, but very recently I’ve been gravitating towards soothing vloggers like Anna Park and Mejiwoo. Their vlogs are greeeeaaaaat and I’m excited to discover similar creators so I can watch more videos that carry the same vibe.

Are you a good dancer?  I dance only when alone or when drunk. That said, I’m no good at all.

If you could find one long-lost friend of the past, who would it be?  Continued from yesterday. It’d be nice to reconnect with Raegan for like a day, just to catch up. Then again I’ve since been able to track her down on social media, so it’s nice to be able to see how she’s doing, at least from afar.

Was your sixth grade teacher a man or a woman? The teacher-in-charge of my section was a woman. They didn’t really appoint guy teachers to be TICs until recently.

Have you ever had any teeth pulled?  Yeah, but it had been a decayed tooth at that point that really needed to be pulled since it technically didn’t have a purpose anymore.

Do you wash your hair or your body first when taking a shower? Hair. 

Have you ever been to a nursing home?  I don’t think so.

Have you ever lived in a house that has been broken into?  Fortunately, no. My mom’s childhood home was robbed though, and their grand piano ended up being stolen :( To this day they have no clue how the thieves were able to pull it off without making too big of a fuss.

Is there someone in your life you don’t want in it?  I don’t think I dislike anyone that much at the moment.

How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried over?  Three. Two of them because they died, and the other one is my dad for the times we had to drive him to the airport though I only cried over it only as a kid. 

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?  Andi.

Has anyone ever told you they were in love with you?  Yes.

Pretending to “never get the text” from someone who annoys you. Is that you?  Not really. I reply, just not quickly enough.

If your ex came up to you and asked you to take them back, what would you say?  Honest to god I would probably be smug about it, and ask what led to the sudden change of mind. I’m doing too okay now to entertain the request though, so idk if I would agree to it or not because I’ve worked pretty hard to get here.

Do you prefer boys to shave down there? I wouldn’t know; I’ve never been with a guy before so I haven’t really had a chance to establish a preference.

How much does your mother know about your sex life (or lack thereof)? Nothing.

Do you enjoy watching cooking shows?  I have my moods. I prefer my cooking shows on YouTube, though.

Do you worry about gaining weight?  No.

Have you ever seen the movie A Walk to Remember? Cliche or worth watching?  Yeah the acting was so fucking cheesy the first 5 minutes the only thing left for me to do was gag. What’s one event your town has that you don’t like to participate in?  They don’t really organize stuff here, or if they do I never join them to begin with.

Are any of your siblings married? What are their spouses' names?  Nope. I know my sister doesn’t want to get married + I don’t speak to my brother, so I dunno if I’ll ever have any in-laws tbh.

Do you like being home alone or does it freak you out?  Well obviously I crave it these days, so it actually feels nice when everyone in the family has errands to run on the same day.

Did you lose friends when you started dating someone?  I lost Sofie, but I also blame college life for that loss.

Did you leave milk and cookies for Santa when you were little?  No.

To who did you last give the finger to?  I haven’t had to flip someone off in a while. I’m guessing just some stupid driver.

Do you talk in your sleep?  Nope. At least I have never been informed that I do.

Do you have a good relationship with your parents?  It’s civil enough for the house to stay quiet most days, but it’s nothing excellent.

Have you ever been a featured member on any website?  I don’t think so.

Do you feel that your previous relationships were a waste of time?  Yes.

Do you prefer hot chocolate with or without marshmallows?  Without. I HAAAAAATE marshmallows.

Which do you like better: Regular cakes or cookie cakes?  I never got the point of cookie cakes tbh lol.

Have you ever been hit by the opposite sex?  No.

If your significant other cheated on you, would you take them back?  I know I definitely have the capacity to be dumb enough to do this, but it would also depend on how invested I am in the person.

What was the last song you listened to?  I'm currently listening to a slowed down version of Jungkook’s cover of Biebs’ 2U. 4 AM things.

What do you look for most in a friendship?  I’ve answered this question on a previous survey, same with a few of the following questions.

[piilokarsastus]

Question time!

1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? because life is hard and i just don’t understand what i’m doing wrong but everyone else seems to know

2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? nope. and to be fair, i would be sleeping anyway

3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? if it’s like an actual thing for them that they do regularly, i’d probably be a bit concerned, but i don’t see anything wrong with trying things out for fun. if you’re just a straight up pothead, we wouldn’t be dating in the first place

4: Do you find it easy to trust others? i guess

5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? filling in another pointless question post on tumblr, funny that you should ask

6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? unlikely scenario, but i’m gonna say my friends from uni

7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? probably spend the next few years thinking about it, unable to trust anyone again

8: Are you close with your dad? not as close as with my mum but still reasonably close

9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? i’m curious as to what kind of life you think i’m living because this is not it

10: What are you listening to? the soothing hum of my laptop fan

11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? woter:)

12: Do you like hickeys? i don’t exactly understand the point

13: What time do you go to bed? going to bed and falling asleep are two very different things but usually around 2-4

14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? me. it’s me.

15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? definitely not

16: Do you always answer your texts? sooner or later, yes

17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? no

18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? not that long ago

19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? all of my friends

20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? aight imma head out

21: Is anyone else in the room with you? no

22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? in a sense i do

23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? i feel like i was, yeah

24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? well there’s nothing to “fix” per se, i just wish things went differently

25: In the past week, have you cried? yes

26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? red

27: Do people ever call you by your last name? my aunt often does, weirdly enough

28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? only every single one of the 4 people i’ve messaged on tinder recently. which makes me feel really great

29: Do you have a best friend? there’s someone i could perhaps call my best friend but i don’t think i have a “true” best friend at the moment like those i’ve had before

30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? no i’m completely neutral towards her

31: Who was your last call from? my friend tried to call me yesterday but i couldn’t answer

32: Are you mad at anyone? no

33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you? marginally, yes

34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? honestly i don’t know?? i don’t remember when she was born exactly but i feel like we were born in the same year at least, so i’m guessing either 21 or 22

35: How many more days until your birthday? 329

36: Do you have any summer plans yet? summer literally just ended so no

37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? not exactly a fan of the word opposite in this context but i get what you mean. so yeah, most of my friends are of the “opposite” sex

38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? nothing that would be their business to know

39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? i guess i do.

40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? i haven’t kissed nearly enough people for there to be any regrets. soo... would you like to be my first regret? haha just kidding... unless...

41: Do you think age matters in relationships? not going to write the essay that the wording of this question warrants but basically yes but only to some extent; what’s more important is that you’re in a similar phase in life and have similar expectations about the relationship. age can be a large factor in those things as well as your “maturity” but it isn’t the only factor.

42: Are you available? yeah bitch hmu

43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? two

44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? well i guess it’d have to be a septum, then

45: Do you believe exes can be friends? yes, in fact that’s my life philosophy

46: Do you regret anything? :)) i don’t think about it as much as i used to but i’ve never fully forgiven myself for confessing my feelings to someone who wasn’t interested in me. this is known as the february 2019 incident

47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? tiddies

48: Did you ever lose a best friend? yeah, not to death but to life

49: Was your last kiss a mistake? no

50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? i don’t quite like anyone at the moment and it’s gonna take a long time until i’m ever going to have the courage to make a move on anyone i’m interested in because of the aforementioned incident

51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? no

52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? no, like there’s nothing negative between us and we’d say hello if we met on the street but we just don’t talk 

53: What was the last thing you ate? pancake:)

54: Did you get any compliments today? haven’t really interacted with anyone today so no

55: Where are you going on your next vacation? bich this is my vacation, i’m going nowhere except to bed

56: Do you own anything from other countries? yes. like i’m a bit amused by this question like where on this planet can you even live where at least some of your stuff hasn’t been made in China etc. (well, i guess that would be China). but even if you’re referring to souvenirs from trips etc, still yes

57: Are most of your friend guys or girls? girls

58: Where have you lived most of your life? in Oulu, Finland

59: When was the last time you took a long drive? a few months ago, but i wasn’t the one driving

60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? yes, also known as the game where my friends try to find out who i have a crush on

61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house? i had to google what TPing means and i’m more and more scared of americans every day

62: Who do you text the most? honestly my social life is at a point where my most common recurring interaction is exchanging cat videos with my mum (apart from group chats)

63: What was the last movie you saw? the matrix

64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? yeah as if i have one

65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2010? 2010?? damn i was literally 10

66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you? we were around the same age

67: Do you curse around your parents? for comedic effect

68: Are you happy with where you live? not my dream apartment but it’s okay

69: Do you collect anything? my tiktok seems to have become a collection of about 250 cute lgbt folks, but other than that, no

70: What’s your favourite colour? a kind of deep, ultramarine blue

71: Does the last song you listened to remind you of anyone? not in particular

72: Has anyone ever cheated on you? no

73: What are your plans for tomorrow? make some music

74: Do you have siblings over the age of twenty-one? i don’t have any

75: Does your last ex have a job? not that i know of

76: What would you do if you found out your most recent ex was in a relationship? she is and i’m happy for her, or as happy as i can be while being painfully aware of the fact that my love life hasn’t gone anywhere in the past two years

77: Where is your cellphone? on the floor, charging

78: What colour is your cellphone? black and bronze

79: What did you dream of last night? it was something fairly nsfw and extremely hot and i lterally had to pause for a second when i woke up because damn it’s been so fucking long since i’ve experienced that irl and it left me with a bad case of yearning

80: Are you atheist? yes

81: Will you change your name when you get married? no

82: Are you ready for autumn weather? would be a bit too late if i wasn’t

83: Have you had any big storms recently? there was one that was rumoured to be really big but tbh i barely noticed it 

84: What kind of bottoms are you wearing? just my comfy pajamas

[dykexion]

tagged by @minatodilf ty Ash 👌👌

What was your last

Drink: just plain water

Last phone call: my dad (I'm not big on phone calls so only my parents really call me normally)

Last text: telling @vulturousculturalist to go to sleep because it was 1am and I'm the responsible friend uwu. if discord messages don't count then I was texting one of my friends calling Zero from megaman a himbo at like 5am

Last song you listened to: Kansas by Gorillaz

Last time you cried: a few days ago I think

Have you ever dated someone: nope! being a small town dyke that goes to a catholic school unfortunately doesn't give me many dating prospects 😅

Been cheated on: nah

Kissed someone and regretted it: I don't think so actually, I once kissed a friend and it was,,,,a lil weird and we're not actually friends anymore (unrelated) and I don't like her but,,,,it was just something that happened I guess

Lost someone special: not really

Been drunk and thrown up: never been drunk! I never drink enough to make me more than just a lil tipsy

List three fave colors: black green and purple

In the last year have you…

Made a new friend: yeah!

Fallen out of love: nope

Laughed until you cried: many times, I laugh at things really easily

Met someone that changed you: I have no sense of self so maybe lmao

Found out who your true friends are: haha yeah. it was fun having an "intervention" staged about me being "unnecessarily rude to everyone and unable to make friends" when I reported a kid for harassing my other friend and making sexist and racist comments. needless to say the person who did that's not my fuckin friend anymore

Found out someone was talking about you: hahaha.

Kissed someone on your FB friends list: don't have facebook

General

How many people on your FB friends list do you know irl: don't have facebook

Do you have any pets: unfortunately no though I adore all kinds of animals. I do lay somewhat of a claim to my friend's cat because she actually apparently likes me better than the people who live with her lmao (take that Lorna!)

Do you want to change your name: hmmm i don't think so tbh, I was thinking of going by a shortening of my middle name (Louise -> Lou) occasionally but idk lmao

What did you do for your last birthday: I don't think I've actually done anything for my birthday since I was like 10. I was gonna meet up with a few friends last year but coincidentally there was a school trip the same day and we got stuck in traffic on the way back so I couldn't do that :/

What time did you wake up today: about 4am. I went to sleep just after midnight and woke up four hours later unable to go back to sleep. I'm out of school for the summer but I've still been instinctively waking up at around the time I'd get up for school anyway but today just took the biscuit and woke me two hours before that

What were you doing at midnight last night: watching the snapcube Sonic 06 fandub

Name something you CANNOT wait for: uhhhhhhhh idk tbh. something will probably come to me immediately after I post this though

Last time you saw your mother: saw her like an hour ago

What is one thing you wish you could change about life: not to be stereotypical but money probably. my family's kinda in deep shit atm because we're paying out our arses to keep my grandma in the care home she's at bc we can't take care of her but that costs a serious amount of money so we don't have too much left for other stuff and it's just a tad Worrying

What are you listening to right now: I've got Gorillaz on shuffle on spotify and I can also kinda hear the rain outside

Have you ever talked to a person with the name Tom: unfortunately yes.

What’s getting on your nerves: thinking about my exam results that I'm not gonna get back until the end of August that decide my academic path for at least the next two years

Most visited website: YouTube and Tumblr

Nickname: not too many people call me nicknames anymore but cookie and amy-lou are what people used to call me (still do occasionally)

Relationship status: single

Zodiac sign: libra (+ aquarius moon and rising)

Pronouns: she/her or they/them + I also go by he/him in my head sometimes.....indecisive

Fave tv shows: I don't watch too much TV but uhhh recently I watched good omens and lucifer they were alright

Hair color: brown but I used to be super blonde when I was little. I'm also hopefully dyeing it soon, probably purple

Long or short: I prefer having my hair short and I've gone through cycles of long hair to short hair through my life lmao. the current short hair has stayed for three years so far though so thats A New Record

Height: 5'3

Do you have a crush on someone: idk tbh

What do you like about yourself: uh. despite being a major dumbass I'm actually quite clever and I like that I can help people with that. when I'm not hiding them behind my glasses or fringe I get complimented on my eyes occasionally so that's a nice physical thing. oh and also being gay as hell yeehaw

Tattoos: I don't have any but I'd kinda maybe want a simple one in the future

Righty or Lefty: righty

First surgery: never had one. I've never even fractured a bone somehow

First piercing: not actually got any piercings yet....my mum always said no piercings until I was 18 but I'm working on getting my ears pierced this summer

First best friend: this (only) girl I was friends with in like year 1 and 2. she left school after that and I never saw her again, Elizabeth if you're out there....

First sport you joined: ballet! I've been doing it for over a decade now lmao I'm almost at the point where I could become a qualified teacher if I wanted to (cue identity crisis over what I want out of life)

First pair of trainers: why??

Right now

Eating: toast

Drinking: woter

Listening to: this question has been asked three times now lmao, Gorillaz on Spotify

Want kids: probably not

Career: I want to be a translator or smth like that

Which is better:

Lips or eyes: eyes

Hugs or kissed: hugs

Shorter or taller: don't mind

Romantic or spontaneous: romantic

Nice stomach or nice arms: Arms For Hugging

Sensitive or loud: sensitive probably

Hook up or relationship: relationship definitely

Troublemaker or hesitant: hmmmm idk

Have you ever:

Kissed a stranger: nope

Drank hard liquor: nope

Lost glasses/contacts: fuckin constantly

Sex on a first date: nope

Broke someone’s heart: uh maybe? there was this one kid that seemed to have been really into me for a while that I turned down when we were like 14 (sorry Jamie lmao but you were instrumental in me figuring out I didn't like dudes so thanks mate)

Had your own heart broken: nah

Been arrested: never

Turned someone down: yea

Cried when someone died: yea

Fallen for a friend: unfortunately lol potentially multiple times but I'm still a disaster who can't differentiate between strong romantic and platonic feelings wassup

Do you believe in:

Yourself: eh they're alright occasionally

Miracles: nope

Love at first sight: not really

Santa Claus: nope. not sure if my parents ever bothered that much keeping it secret that he wasn't real

Kiss on the first date: sure why not

Angels: nah

i tag: (only if you wanna do it since this is super long) @vulturousculturalist @jothriku @comicsansisasin + anyone who wants to do it. I'm not tagging too many people since this is A Lot and it seems like other people are already doing this stuff atm, have a fun tuesday

[hanmemyphone]

prove ur not weak and do all the flowers

excusE ME you hoe goddamn i knew reblogging this was a trap alr alr let’s gooooooo (sorry to others who asked, seeing as I’m doing all of them, you’ll see the answers here)edit 1: i hate this so much there are SO MANYedit 2: how the heck did you do these it’s so hard

In response to this!

amaryllis - name an attribute of yourself that you are proud of.Uhhhh, I guess I’m cheerful? I don’t like to be down around others bc it might make them feel down as well so I try my best to always keep a smile~

anemone - describe a time when you felt abandoned or betrayed by someone you loved.Like, two years ago when I thought I was so close to dating the person I’d crushed on for two years but then they seemed to completely ditch me (though I did know reasoning and such, we’re good friends now)

azalea - would you describe yourself as a patient person?Hmmmmmm it honestly depends on the situation. Sometimes I can be the most patient person in the world and sometimes I get super frustrated when someone fails to complete a simple task.

begonia - describe anything you see as a “red flag” (something that makes you cautious about a new friend or love interest)My red flags are when people don’t respect others, when they don’T GIVE UP THEIR SEAT FOR PEOPLE WHO NEED IT ahem and people who seem to lack common sense.

bird of paradise - do you like hosting parties, or do you prefer to just attend?I’m more of a ‘perfer to attend’ type. I don’t mind helping out behind the scenes but recently held a party with friends and it was the best mess ever. Definitely not one for hosting either.

bluebell - what keeps you humble?UhhhhhhHhHh probably my friends who are just so much better than me LOL

chysanthemum - describe your idea of a perfect day.Chilling at home alone playing games and just blasting music

spring crocus - describe your favorite childhood memory.hmmmmm probably waking up in the middle of the night to watch my dad play World of Warcraft. There was one certain raid he would play where there was a fight which took place in a theatre and every time you did it there was a different play. There was like Romeo and Juliet, Red Riding Hood and The Wizard of Oz. It was honestly so fun to watch these plays (despite the violence in the bg but we keep hush about that). This honestly pushed me into the gaming hole.

daffodil - how do you confess your feelings to someone you’re interested in?HahahahHAAHAHa I would answer this truthfully if I had ever done it. I was very close to writing a love letter just last year but wussed out. Though, in the future, I would probably say it to their face.

daisy - describe something that gives you hope when things seem bleak.Tbh I just remember the words of Monty Oum. People don’t get it but I honestly live by his words. He was the creator of RWBY but I followed him wayyy before that. He was always going on about how you should always keep moving forward and the only obstacle is time. Remembering how much he accomplished in his short life just makes me keep going.

foxglove - when was the last time you told a lie?Today? I think? Told my mum I went to the shops in the morning to get milk (I never did, I didn’t even wake up, my grandma got the milk instead whoops)

gardenia - have you ever had to keep a romance a secret? if so, why and for how long?Yes it did in my early highschool years. I was afraid my parents would find out and get me for it so I just kept it a secret, only telling a few close friends.

purple hyacinth - describe a time when you had to apologize to someoneI had to apologise to my ex because I was the biggest piece of shit in that relationship. I fell out of love and instead of breaking up with him and helping each other move on, I ignored him for a bit only talking to him when I needed to. Very bad of me I know :(

hydrangea - how much time do you spend on your appearance each day?Not that much LOL I just like, get dressed in something, brush my hair and do facial care stuff. 10 minutes and I’m ouT

white jasmine - what is something that never fails to make you laugh?1. The kpop band Seventeen. They’re such idiots and I love them.2. My friend, SC (just his initials) he’s just endless entertainment.

lavender -  describe your oldest friendship, and why you think it has lasted so long.My oldest friendship is with the monkey who asked me to do every single flower, I’m talking about you @moanbyul-yi >:(Honestly, what a great person tho, our friendship is just so chill and I love that. We don’t have to talk every day and spend time together to know that when we DO meet up, it’s never awkward.

lilac - describe your first relationship or first love.A very cringeworthy relationship when I was in the eighth grade (yeeeaaaaaah you know how it is). Was all fun and games until we realised that we never really did anything together.

calla lily - what traits do you find beautiful in others? in yourself?Kindness, honesty and just compassion. I love these in others, can honestly make me fall instantly. In me? idk HAHA I think others are more beautiful than me

tiger lily - if you had to choose between doing what you love and making very little money, or doing a job you hate and making a lot of money, what would you choose and why?I think I would rather be doing what I love. I don’t need that much money to live, I like living a very modest life so I’d much rather prefer looking forward to each day rather than dreading it.

lotus flower - would you say that you are a spiritual person? if so, what elements of spirituality are important to you?Not really? I appreciate it but I’m not really one for all of that.

magnolia - describe your favorite thing to do outdoors.Sleep. Honestly. Gimme a good, on the cold side day and I could just sleep on a nice patch of grass under a tree. 

morning glory - are you an affectionate person? if so, how do you show affection?I’m not an affectionate person at all. I don’t really hug others like some do or tell people how much I appreciate them or like them. Although, I think if I were in a relationship, I would love to cuddle and hold their hands. I found this out two years back.

pansy - what is the most thoughtful thing that anyone has done for you?Don’t know if it’s the most but it always makes me smile. Your second appearance @moanbyul-yi ! This one always paints (I’ll use this term broadly here) something for my birthday, it always brings a smile to my face legit. Ty dude.

peony - describe the top three things necessary for a happy life.SATISFACTION.RELAXATION.LOVE.

petunia - what never fails to make you angry?People who don’t give up their seats for people in need. I’m sorry, just don’t like this :(

red poppy - what tips or tricks do you use to cheer yourself up when you’re down?I listen to The Script or Seventeen. Pretty much just listen to music and sleep.

red rose - describe your ideal date or romantic evening.Oh geez, alr hear me out here. I would love to go window shopping with my partner and just sing the songs they play in department stores. Then, we would go home and just chill together, maybe play some games or watch some anime together.

yellow rose - do you get jealous easily?Yes. Very easily. I HATE this about myself because it could be the smallest most insignificant thing and it’ll still tick me off.

snowdrop - have you ever had a falling out with a friend or family member?Not really I don’t think? I don’t really get mad at people.

sunflower - do you consider yourself a loyal person?I think I am, now at least. Betraying others is just something I don’t have an interest in.

sweet pea - describe a difficult goodbye you had to make to a friend or other loved one.A few years ago I went on exchange to Japan meaning that I had to spend two weeks with a Japanese family. That was the hardest goodbye I ever had to make. I cried so much that day HAHA usually I don’t cry at goodbyes but inside I had the feeling I would never see them again so the river of tears started flowing.

violet - how important is loyalty in friendships and/or relationships?SUPER IMPORTANT. To make your friend/partner feel secure in a relationship is so important to their health, in my opinion. Loyalty is just great.

wisteria - do you like poetry? if so, describe your favorite poem(s).I love poetry! My favourite poem is To the Virgins, To Make Much of Time. Kinda mainstream but I love the meaning behind it, telling those who read it to make the most out of every day.

zinnia - do you have any loved ones in your life that you miss and wish you could see?I had a friend in the past who made me into who I am today but in 2014 she died to cancer. If I could see her one more time I would tell her that I loved her so much. I would thank her for everything she taught me and for the stories she told me. She’s someone I’ll never forget. Thinking about it now, maybe I wouldn’t wish to see her. She would probably get mad at me HAHA

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okayy sooo My feelings about Life Is Strange are complicated and personal and honestly I wasn’t even thinking about Before the Storm in a critical way at all when playing through it, so maybe this is all premature and I really don’t know what I’m talking about but whatever. Here’s some long rambly spoilery thoughts on Before the Storm!

What bothered me before starting was how to reconcile the events of BTS with what we learn from LIS. Tbh not just because Why torture us with seeing Chloe and Rachel happy and together if we know how it all ends? (Do not even get me started on that final “cliffhanger” shot.) But it’s not so much that, bc obviously I agree that what happened between them was important no matter the interpretation, it does matter, but what i dislike is how the plot itself ends up switching the focus away from Rachel and Chloe and onto characters who aren’t important to the overall story of LIS.

And i think one reason why it turned out this way is the constraint of limiting the series to three consecutive days. It feels they’re following the formula of LIS for its own sake by doing one episode = one day. When everything is so consolidated to such a short time frame it feels like it’s thematically not about the relationship between Chloe and Rachel and what they meant to each other in those in between years; instead it’s about how they solved this particular problem in those three days. BTS feels so removed from the events of LIS that you could almost pretend that it takes place in an alternate reality from the main game, except of course for that final shot… (ugggggggghhhh)

So in the end it just kindof ends up feeling cruel of the developers tbh, for the plot to end up abandoning what it really started out with in regard to Chloe and Rachel’s relationship.

Back during LIS my impression of Rachel was pretty accurate to her as the force of nature we see in BTS. In both series Rachel is multifaceted; her character and relationship with Chloe is open to different interpretations and she’s a very real kind of person. We’ve all had our own Rachel’s, basically, a wildfire; beautiful and passionate, both innocent and manipulative, supportive and destructive.

That’s why it’s tough to talk about Life is Strange in terms of reviewing what works and what didn’t; it’s hard to be neutral when so much of these games feels so intensely personal. The thing about the first two episodes of BTS is that it IS intensely personal to the characters too… at first. It was always about Rachel and Chloe, building their relationship and the give and take, trust and dreams and friendship and romance and all the teenage drama, it was Chloe and Rachel versus the world, only for the final episode to devolve into this singular focus on secondary characters who in the larger scheme of LIS S1 don’t even exist.

The dream sequences with William were one of my favorite parts, and just as the first two episodes do, they start off as thematically centering on Rachel and Chloe, but later on it changes into a broader question, the truth vs lies theme of the final choice. Which seems like an odd about-face; the previous episodes were so focused on the worlds of Rachel and Chloe, their hopes and fears and anger and isolation from the world of adults, that the switch to the very grown-up question of lying for the ‘greater good’ vs the truth even if it hurts, feels a little off, especially considering that when we know where Rachel and Chloe end up in the sequel makes it all feel like going backwards. I feel like it would have been more effective to continue the episodes as little slice of life moments like in the first episodes centering on the relationship between Rachel and Chloe, but  but spread throughout the years between.

I wasn’t following the fandom at the time of release but from what I can tell it seems there was a lot of rumors about cut content and leaks regarding Episode 3? And I can definitely see where that impression came from. The final episode seems a lot less cohesive than the rest, a lot of things feel unresolved or out of left field. I also didn’t like the feeling that they were going for another Gotcha climax like in LIS that you -never see coming- or whatever. It was kindof nonsensical and honestly I was just confused. The thing with Elliot was legitimately scary but what gets me about it is, like…

I’m not sure if it’s really clever or missing their own point? When Elliot is the one framing these questions and doubts, what if Rachel really is manipulative and bad for Chloe, it’s just automatic for you to reject the idea. And maybe that’s why that ceases to be the question for the rest of the episode, Chloe is no longer interested in whether or not Rachel is “good for her” or if she should trust her, it’s no longer even a choice.

But the other “twist” part that I just don’t get is with Rachel’s dad and what he was really doing, because honestly, how is hiding the truth even an option after that? The ending sequence with the office was just one “wha” moment after another but the vision/hallucination and the mill confrontation had a great lead-up but then a terrible conclusion. I’m so disappointed Ghost William and Damon didn’t have an epic throw-down. Ok i’m kidding but it would’ve been pretty fun to have the final backtalk sequence be some kind of Vision William and Chloe vs Damon knife/verbal action sequence.

And I legit thought that talking with Sera was another dream sequence and the conversation was actually trying to convince her to not die and see Rachel again, and when it was over we’d wake up and THEN have our epic throw down with Damon. But instead we don’t get to do anything before being knocked out and suddenly all our problems are solved off screen? Then we have a nice calm conversation, it’s so out of place and weird, like were you not just injected with a huge drug dosage ten seconds ago that may or may not have been intended to kill you I still have no idea what Damon was actually trying to pull off here????

It’s just a weird choice that Rachel’s parents situation started out as another bullet point on the list of shared angst that she and Chloe bond over but becomes the entire plot of the final episode while Rachel herself is sidelined out of the picture completely.

This video explains in a really interesting way, the first LIS had a kind of genre bend in the last few episodes, but where it worked there in a very thematic way that even tied in to the final choice (unintentionally or not), in BTS it just feels like things got switched up for no reason. The question of the final choice is a tough one in any other circumstances, but the actual events leading up to it and as the entire reason for this series to exist? Meh.

But you know whatever I cried anyway and didn’t really care if it made sense tbqh!!!!

I didn’t expect answers to any of the supernatural stuff in the first game, to me it’s fine for it to just hint at things, and I kindof wish they kept up with that vibe instead of going into soap-opera territory in the final episode there. The stuff with The Tempest and the wildfire and the symbolism and love at first sight, it was all so dreamy, just hanging out with Rachel & friends and trying to navigate the awkward and the uncomfortable and the space between childhood and adulthood, the unexplainable and the mundane and the magical, that to me is the heart of Life is Strange and what makes Before the Storm beautiful in it’s own way.

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The 100 Ask Game

Thanks for the tag @istilldothiseveryday ! This looks fun :)

1. What would you get arrested for on the Ark? 

Protests? Can you get arrested for that on the Ark?

I dunno. I have a very strong personality I’d probably get into to some kind of trouble politically on the Ark 2. Would you take off your wristband when you landed on the ground? 

Nah. I’m very much alike with Clarke in the way I think and as much as I may like to stick my middle finger up at the council if I was sent down on the dropship, I think I would see the value in having the Ark (aka. a functioning society) follow us down to the ground. I would be scared out of my mind of the Grounders - back up would be nice. 3. What would the necklace Finn would make for you look like? (Clarke: deer/Raven: a raven duh..) 

Probably a mangled mess of metal cause I’d shut down that shit SO hard

4. If you could resurrect any MINOR character who would it be? 

Maya. I understand that her surviving doesn’t really make any sense and they needed her to die for jasper’s arc or whatever BUT TBH SHE HAD SO MUCH POTENTIAL??? Like, I stanned her team-up with Bellamy so hard; I’d literally sell my soul to satan for her to be incorporated into the delinquent’s group. Can you imagine her suiting up and going on hunting missions with Harper? Attending Lincoln and Bell’s sparring lessons? Sharing her music with Gina at the bar????? Helping out Abby and Jackson in medical???? Having heart to hearts with Clarke about her mom (and Clarke’s dad), who both died rebelling against the system??? Cracking jokes with Monty?? imagine if she went up to space with the squad, and what their relationship could have been like then! She could be their medic on board. 

People always simplify Maya to her relationship with Jasper (and yes they were cute) but SHE COULD HAVE BEEN SO MUCH MORE. She was smart and courageous and selfless - she had fire and wit and strength and i m i s s her. 

She’ll never see Earth, never breathe real air, never float on the water, never meet Riley 

We’ll never get to see her grow up and it makes me sad

5. Create a squad of 5 characters to go on missions with. Who are they? 

Raven and Monty because they’re GENIUSES obviously.

Lincoln and Bellamy so I don’t fucking DIE lmao - I know they got my back (my poor boys - both too selfless for their own good)

Clarke cause the Angry Cat game is strong and she’s got a real knack for not dying even when she should, probably, be 110% dead 6. Minty or Briller? 

Briller. Tragically, Bryan only started to interest me in 4x02 when they gave him more dimension by visiting farm station. 

Also ... how can you say no to chickens?  7. What would your name be in Trigedasleng? (example: Octavia=Okteivia…just make it up!)

Uhhh. Keit? Kayt? 

What a lame name 8. Thoughts on Finn? Some people hate him, and others love him, so I’m curious

i don’t know him

9. Be honest. How willing would you have been to take the chip without knowing all the horrible things it does? 

I doubt I would take it. Unknown drug with unknown effects? Sounds pretty sketch. I don’t see myself going for that - I’m a generally skeptical person. 10. What character do you relate to most & What character do you like the least not including the obvious ones like Pike, etc… 

Definitely relate the most to my INTJ queen Clarke Griffin! 

And Octavia is probably my least favourite character. I can see why some people like her and the merit in her character arc I guess but tbh she just IRRITATES me to no end - she has certain characteristics that really grate at me. Obviously, some characters are horrible people (like Dr. Tsing ew) but Octavia just infuriates me because of some of her characteristics.

She’s not for me. 11. Describe your delinquent outfit. (Would you wear something like Murphy’s jacket with the spikey red shoulder patch or have a trademark like Jasper’s goggles? Be creative, yet practical) 

Something practical cause I’m boring. 

Cargo pants. Ark-issued t-shirt. And a nice warm jacket. The jackets the characters wear on this show are pathetic - they barely look like they keep the wind out. And only Bellamy zips his up. smh vancouver is colder than it looks - all that humidity

As for a trademark thing? 

I’d be the only arker with an “I <3 BELLAMY BLAKE” t shirt probably

12. Favorite type of mutant animal?

Bellamy’s three-headed doggo he hasn’t found yet

anyway i still have hope

13. What would your job be on the Ark? 

I think I’d follow in Raven/Monty’s paths a bit and go into something mathematical like engineering but knowing myself I’d probably end up moving into politics later on. I have too many strong opinions to put up with the Ark system lol 14. Would you have willingly pumped Ontari’s heart if Abby asked?

Oh HELL no. I’d probably throw up all over it. I’m sorry Clarke. It’s not like that’s ACTUALLY how blood transfusions work anyway *intense side-eye at The 100 “science”* 15. If Lxa wasn’t Heda, but she’s still alive right? then who would make the best commander? 

None of them. Bellamy x Clarke leadership duo. I don’t care about the Grounder commander system - it’s all kinda bs anyway. 

None of the individual leaders on this show have done a good job. They’ve always functioned best as a team (which is why I want the Bellarke leader couple back) 16. If you were a grounder, then where would you live and who would be your mentor? 

I mean I know she went all cray cray and they all died but probably Luna’s rig. I don’t want shit to do with the other clans, who are always warring with each other. And I think Nyko would be a pretty good mentor. I’d like to learn medicine.  17. How would you act if you ate the hallucinogenic nuts like Jasper and Monty? 

Let’s be real, I’d probably start crying about how Bellamy and Clarke are in love and wHy cAn’T tHeY jUSt bAnG aLrEAdY ... and Finn would be real mad about it if he was in charge of picking my ass off the floor like in “Day Trip” 

ha! I think it would be worth it 18. How would you have dealt with Charlotte’s crime? A more John Murphy approach or Bellamy Blake? 

I mean ... I definitely wouldn’t lead a manhunt to kill a thirteen year old girl so I can say with a lot of confidence that I would NOT follow the Murphy route. Not so sure I’d just pardon her though. I think the delinquents needed some kind of prison system. Charlotte did murder a kid. Even though she was a child, there probably should have been some kind of consequence for that (though not killing her would be ideal) 19. Who should be the Chancellor, if anyone? 

Bellamy Blake and Clarke Griffin co-leading motherfucking power couple

I will accept no less in canon. just let me fucking have this

20. Mount Weather had a lot of modern commodities. (example: Maya’s Ipod)What is the one thing you would snatch while there? 

Oh, the iPod for sure. I literally don’t know if I could live without music. I’m listening to it ALL the time - I’m listening to it right now. RAIGN is playing *cries in Bellarke* 21. Do you think you’d have caught the virus spread through camp or would you have been immune like O.ctavia? 

I’m a weak ass bitch so probably 

and on the basis that I don’t like any of the people who ARE immune then maybe I don’t wanna be - what’s the point of surviving in a world where you’ve only got Finn Collins and O.ctavia Blake for company?  22. What would your grounder tattoos look like? Hairstyle? War paint? 

I want whatever makeup L.exa’s got from Polisephora. You think she’d share some of that eyeliner? 23. Favorite quote? 

“Shouldn’t there be more to life than just surviving?” - Clarke Griffin (2x14)

24. Can you forgive Murphy for his actions? How about Bellamy?

Yeah. I feel like we’re kind of past this point in the plot. They’ve both showed development and change and I think we’re definitely at a place in the story where both of them are intended as sympathetic characters to the audience. 25. If one of the characters was in the Hunger Games, who would have the best shot at winning? NOOOOO ALREADY SO MUCH DEATH NOOOO 

I’m going to answer this as if all of our characters were thrown into the ring and I have to predict which one would win. 

I wanna say Octavia because I think she’s independent and - er - determined enough to take out someone she knows if it came down to being the two of them to grant her own freedom and survival. Whereas, someone like Clarke or Bellamy or Kane would probably just nightlock it cause they’re self-sacrificial af. 

But then I also think maybe Murphy ‘cause cockroaches never die (thank you Raven). 26. Least favorite ship? Favorite ship? NOT INCLUDING CL OR BC 

Least favourite ship that people actually like? (aka. not something like Clarke and Jaha)

Probably B.echo (as a romantic relationship, not necessarily sexual). Hate to be basic and predictable but I think I would actually die if it were endgame.

FAVOURITE SHIP THAT ISN’T BELLARKE

how dare

If you asked me this a few months ago I would have told ya Niytavia but now that we’ve gotten more teasers about Octavia’s character in Season 5 I’m not sure if I want her anywhere near her (I like Niylah when she’s hot, but not cooked, ya feel?)

So maybe Jasper and Raven. Idk. I liked their friendship. Still bitter about Season 4.

I don’t really ship anything besides Bellarke that much. They’re an anomaly for me. 27. A song that should be included in the next season, like when Radioactive was? If there had to be another guest star like Shawn Mendes on the show, who would you want to make a cameo? 

Tbh RAIGN goes hard af so anything by her would be pretty lit. 

I mostly only associate songs I listen to with Bellarke when I’m applying them to the show so I’ve got like 100+ songs that I would love to use for them but its hard to think of a context where they would fit in with the tone of the show

And I want Tessa Virtue and Scott Moir to cameo. They don’t need to say anything - they just need to stare soulfully into each other’s eyes in the background. 

... or makeout

Whatever. 28. What would you do if you were stuck in the bunker with Murphy for all that time? 

Steal the wine. Have karaoke battles. Drunkenly cry because RaVEn iS sO sTrONg and sO gOoD (and he would cry with me - he WOULD). 

Gossip about Bellamy’s butt.

The possibilities are endless, really. 

29. Opinion on Emori? Roan? 

I don’t really have a strong opinion on Emori. I feel like our knowledge of her is still so limited. She’s still barely interacted with anyone besides Murphy. But I’m guessing that may change in Season 5. I’d like to see her interact more with Bellamy, since they both have siblings (and Emori was the disgraced child too, just like O). Not many people can relate in that sense.

I really liked Roan but TO BE HONEST I found him more intriguing in Season 3 than in Season 4. He was literally up there in like my top four or five characters in Season 3 - I was so excited to learn more about him! In Season 4 he didn’t have much of a character arc, he was just kind of there to look moody and badass.

But honestly Roan is one of those characters that I don’t think was necessarily intended to be funny (as opposed to characters like Jasper and Wick) but his interactions with Clarke, Bellamy, and Echo offered up the occasional piece of comedy gold. He went too soon. Forever mourning the bromance that he and Bellamy could have had.

30. Would you want to be an extra that is killed off in a brutal way? 

I wanna be Satisfied Girl.

Or Riley. Everyone loves that guy

so ... no? maybe? does it come with the job? 31. A character you’d like to learn more about and get flashbacks of?

CADOGAN. @metastation has ruined me; now I just want more!

Also any of the Eligius crew tbh 32. A character you’d bang? 

Omg like all of them.

Bellamy and Raven are up there tho. 

And highkey Bree could get it. She looks like she knows what she’s doing.

Echo’s hot but i dunno chains and choking aren’t really my thing

Anywayyyyy I’m way too late to the party so I won’t tag anyone but like if you feel like doing this GO AHEAD ! And you can tag me in your post if you want too

[misawa]

hello! since you're accepting prompts could you write some MiSawa soulmate AU? >w<

omg i’m so down for this!!!! soulmate au’s are my cup of tea so here i go! honestly, i kept on pondering whether i should write something cute or angsty (in the end i gave up so whatever turn the story took i just went with it tbh) but either way, i hope you enjoy this!! ♥

*note: this got really long, and personally i want to continue it, especially since i have A LOT MORE i’d like to write. this drabble almost reached 2k words, so i’m really thinking of turning it into a fic!! that if people like it of course ghdfjbgjd if i does get to that, then i might as well publish it on ao3 :)c

rating: generalcouple: misawaword count: 1,751 wordsdescription: “who needs a soul mate anyway!?” were the words a 12-year-old miyuki kazuya had screamed, whatever pebbles his small hands could grab thrown at the night sky along with all his anger and grief. back then, the 12-year-old boy had no way of knowing that at 15 he’ll be meeting his fated one, at 17 he’d have already fallen in love, shared a kiss, his heart starting its healing. through the many years that had to come though, he’d also learn what sadness truly felt like.

“hello! my name is miyuki kazuya! what’s your name?” that was the first thing a 9-year-old kazuya scribbled across his arms the moment he’d learnt about the existence of soul mates. a long time ago (last week) a certain child had asked his mother “how did you meet father?” and the answer he got was truly out of the ordinary: “mama wrote down a number on her arm and the number showed up on papa’s arm too! so papa wrote back ‘is that your phone number?’ on his arm, and it showed up on mama’s arm too. that’s the first time we talked.” 

with that in mind, he’d attempted writing to his soul mate. the first time he wrote to his soul mate there was no reply, no smudge across his skin. nothing. kazuya sulked about it for a good while until he decided to try again, only for this time to get a reply!: “hello!!! i’m sawamura eijun! : D” through the drawings and scribbles of two innocent children, kazuya had learnt that eijun hadn’t replied at first due to him twisting his wrist. he’d also learnt that the two lived quite far away from one another (”hey dad, where’s nagano?”) and that, coincidentally, they both happened to LOVE baseball, each playing a position that completed their partner. 

who would’ve thought having a soul mate could be so much fun?

days turned into weeks, and weeks turned into months, and months turned into years. the more he aged, the more kazuya’d close within himself. he was no longer the bubbly child his mother raised - she was out of the picture either way. he continued smiling, playing baseball a dream he’d never give up on, yet making friends seemed almost impossible, communication would only happen on the baseball field. at the age of 12, miyuki kazuya had realised it had been half an year since he last talked to eijun, more exactly since eijun attempted to write to him. his body was an empty canvas that lacked the random splatters on ink that the younger would draw upon his skin. that night he cried, he yelled, like a child he threw a tantrum, blaming the universe for his misfortune, throwing rocks at the sky with all his strength. “who needs a soul mate anyway?!” he’d been abandoned. 

skip a few years, miyuki kazuya was finally in high scool, his first year coming to an end. he no longer wrote to sawamura, and neither did sawamura write to him. a haunting silence, anything but comforting. his fingers would itch each time he’d sit in class and he’d hold a pen; he wanted to write, to talk to the other. his heart begged for it, cried for it - though they have yet to meet, he knew that not talking to the youth left a hole in his chest, a hole that ached and yearned for his soul mate’s love. after all, though he did not want to admit it, soul mates complete each other. it was a reality he couldn’t ignore; his body wouldn’t let him ignore it. not one day would pass without him thinking of eijun at least once, wondering how he’s doing, what’s he up to, and yet the feeling of being unworthy of such a blessing that came in the form of the pitcher was a constant nag in the back of his mind. 

—- that fatidic day had come though. never would he have expected takashima rei to be his … cupid of some sorts. that day would remain embedded in his heart and mind for as long as he’d have to live. the day in which he had finally met sawamura eijun. 

for some reason, that whole morning he felt antsy, his chest throbbing, heart pulsing; he felt alive, just like the days when he was a clueless child who’d spend a good half of the day writing to his other half. he’d woken up without wishing to go back to sleep, he’d gotten dressed faster than usual, he’d even offered to catch for the upperclassmen rather than have them ask him. how unusual. 

that day seemed normal, unlike his actions, everything went smoothly. everyone was training, the insults azuma threw at kawakami resounding on the field until he roared. each of seido’s member had their eyes fixed on the youth who had the courage of a lion, yet the brains of a bird. he’d stood up to azuma, his words leaving a mark upon miyuki: “you can’t play baseball by yourself!!”. a smile painted upon his features, his chest puffing a soft laugh. what an interesting kid! interesting enough for miyuki to want to catch for him when rei-chan announced that the stranger would pitch against azuma.

“wait a minute, i never asked to have a match with some jerk like him!” was the stranger’s protest.

“sawamura, this is a baseball field.” rei retorted, and her words had miyuki doubletake. sawamura? 

his eyes widened, and before he could form a sentence he was gawking at sawamura. it clicked. everything made sense. that was sawamura, pitcher and former captain of his team back in nagano, his SOUL MATE.

laughter bubbled in his chest, and he would’ve almost cried if it weren’t for the location. just imagine; seido’s promising catcher starts randomly crying in the middle of the baseball field, unknown to the rest that he had finally met his other half. ah, he was happy. what is this? how can someone be so overwhelmed with joy upon simply meeting their soul mate. ridiculous! yet there he was, all smiles and chuckles as he offered to catch for the pitcher. 

“can i catch his pitch?” a question directed at the assistant coach, an offer he knew she wouldn’t turn down.

“who’s he?” came sawamura’s inquire, and little did he know that the pitcher was about to live the shock of his life. 

“miyuki kazuya, a catcher.” her reply direct, yet miyuki could only watch in pure bliss the way sawamura’s face turned from confusion to shock, from shock to delight, from delight to anger. 

sawamura eijun was angry at miyuki kazuya. 

so this is how we meet, huh? miyuki had ran up to the three, his smile not once wavering, yet his heart thudding so loud in his ears. he was so close to sawamura that his hands tingled, his fingers twitching, itching to touch him. tonight, again. 

their game had ended faster than he’d wanted, sawamura leaving without sparing him another word, a second glance. for what reason the youth was angry at him, he had a hunch, but now that they’ve met miyuki was certain and could no longer brush aside his heart’s urges; sawamura eijun was completing him, both on and off the field.

that night he grabbed the closest sharpie, and without wasting another second he wrote: “i know you’re angry at me, but i’m really—-” really what? happy? miyuki kazuya is happy? though the damage was done, the wording would need to change. “—glad i met you.” there! sounds better.

the answer he received was almost instant, as if sawamura was expecting a message from the latter. “OF COURSE I’M ANGRY!!!!!!! DO YOU REALISE HOW LONG IT’S BEEN?? I’VE BEEN WAITING ALL THIS TIME, BAKA MIYUKI!!!!” all caps, huh? kazuya laughed like he hadn’t done in a long while, his eyes softening as he ran a digit over the other’s writing. he couldn’t enjoy the moment though, as eijun had quickly erased his words, leaving miyuki wishing the moment would’ve lasted longer. but he couldn’t mourn, not even for a second, as sawamura’s writing showed up on his arm again. “don’t you DARE stop writing you hear?! or i’ll get angry again!!!” “yes, yes ♥” miyuki had quickly added underneath sawamura’s words, and after meeting him in person today he could’ve guessed that eijun was spluttering back in nagano. 

“so are you coming to seido?” miyuki couldn’t help his curiosity; he wanted to know: would he get to spend the remaining of his high school days with his soul mate or would he have to try his best to maintain this long distance relationship? he needed to know, and sawamura was taking his sweet time coming up with a reply. once he wrote back though, miyuki couldn’t help but feel irked. “i don’t know” sawamura had scribbled on his forearm, quickly followed by a “i need some more time to think…”.

“whatever you’ll decide, i’ll be here to catch for you if you come to seido.” miyuki’s answer was instant, the smile that played upon his visage not once disappearing. he missed this. he missed talking to the youth, spending his time writing and drawing on his body, having his soul mate’s writing tattooed on his, even if only for a few moments. happiness washed over him like it hadn’t in a long while, and finally, after so many years, he felt at ease. 

that night he slept like a child, worries forgotten, grief dug in the depth of his heart. the days that came seemed brighter, warmer even (though he’d blame the season for it, somewhere in the back of his mind he knew there was more to that), he’d smile more often. there’d be days when he’d wake up with a mustache drawn above his upper lip. his team-mates would laugh at him, some even tried erasing it for him, but it slowly dawned upon them all: that was miyuki’s soul mate. out of all, kuramochi was the most taken aback as he realised it first; miyuki kazuya is actually having fun with the one who was his soul mate.

miyuki used to live in a world enveloped in silence until sawamura eijun had appeared in front of him, until he re-entered miyuki’s life. now his life was filled with laughter and splatters of colour upon the empty canvas that his skin was, and the distance that separated them no longer mattered. even if sawamura decided to stay in nagano, they’d work a way to meet again. 

sawamura, however, was 10 steps ahead of miyuki. he had the upper hand as he got to decide his future. his decision was a surprise to miyuki, a pleasant one at least. the moment they’d met again on the field when they were both running late to practice was the day miyuki kazuya knew; he knew he’d get to spend the rest of his days alongside his other half. 

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85 Questions For Munday! (Below the cut)

I NEVER GET TAGGED IN THESE OMG BUT @ask-mr-biscuit TAGGED ME And I might have made an inhuman noise ok let’s go!  

And I dunno, they also tagged most of the poeple I would have tagged too, so.....SIS GET OVER HERE @asknyotaliacanada,....and @askaphgreatbritain, and... @ask--aph--feliciano

The last…

Drink: Tap water

Phone Call: My mother.

Text Message: My friend @queensolaria Song You Listened To: Um... La Llorona? (Because of Hetalia MMDs)

Cried: Yesterday, actually. Came very close today.

Dated Someone Twice: No, I’ve never gotten back together with an ex, though I am still good friends with some of them.

Kissed Someone and Regretted It: Yes. I feel bad because it was a summer camp fling, and we started ‘dating’, and I was his first kiss, but we failed to stay in touch after that week. ;~; Poor guy....I hope he doesn’t hate me now. Been Cheated On: I hope not... Lost Someone Special: Yes. Been Depressed: Yes.

Gotten Drunk and Thrown Up: I’ve actually never been drunk- however, I do drink a little bit.

In the last year, have you…

Made New Friends: Yeah. ^u^

Fallen Out of Love: ...sorta yes, sorta no. I’m single, at any rate.

Laughed Until You Cried: Pretty sure I’ve done that withen the last week.

Found Out Someone Was Talking About You: My Dad talks about me all the time tbh.

Met Someone Who Changed You: Hrmm...now that I don’t know.

Found Out Who Your Real Friends Were: I know who they are already, so..

Kissed Someone On Your Facebook List: Yes, considering two of them are my ex’s, xP

General

How Many Facebook Friends Do You Know in Real Life:  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Do You Have Any Pets: I have my cat, Tyson. You’ll see in gifs from time to time, because he’s an adorable git. 

Do You Want to Change Your Name: Yes and no. I don’t feel like my name suits me, but I was named after my great grandmother and I dunno, it’d feel wrong to officially get rid of it. But I do like being called by my online handle, Jehdyn. If I DID ever get it changed, I’d spell it like Jaden. 

What Did You Do For Your Last Birthday: It fell on the same day as a cosplay meet up this year, so I was out being Matthew Williams.

What Time Did You Wake Up: I have no idea. Probably around noon, I don’t know. 

What Were You Doing At Midnight Last Night: Reading bad fanfiction I think.

Name Something You Can’t Wait For: Me to get my life together. :)

When Was The Last Time You Saw Your Mom: Hrmm...I think last week, though we spoke on the phone today.

What Are You Listening to Right Now: Well I have this video going on in another tab xD

Have You Ever Talked to a Person Named Tom: I don’t think so? At least, I can’t remember at the moment. 

Something That is Getting On Your Nerves: People.

Most Visited Website: Youtube, Tumblr, Facebook, and Ebay. :/

Hair Color: A really weird shade of dyed brown. Was blue until a few weeks ago until I had to attempt to dye it back natural to renew my driver’s license. It’s naturally a dark chocolate brown though. 

Long or Short: Long or short what? 

Do You Have A Crush on Anyone: I...don’t know. Like...I’m demi-pan, so like...sure there’s people who I find to be attractive, but they’d have to find me attractive too and start flirting with me I guess for me to really develop any ‘crush’ emotions. And even then, it’s sort of up in the air? 

What Do You Like About Yourself: Nothing. :)  Well, I can’t make some people smile somehow, so I like that I guess.

Piercings: My ears are pierced, but I rarely wear earrings. 

Blood Type: I have no idea, wish I could find out, but I don’t like needles.

Nickname: Jehdyn and Canada, xD. Though a few people still call me Kura.

Relationship Status: Single and afraid. ;w;

Zodiac: Cancer. It’s actually scary how accurate some of those astrology memes are (and hilariously inaccurate.) 

Pronouns:  I am She/Her, though I absolutely don’t mind being called He/Him either. I consider ambiguity a compliment. 

Favorite TV Show: Honestly I don’t watch that much TV...

Tattoos: Probably never. Again, I don’t like needles. If I ever did though, it’d probably be somthing painfully Canadian, like the leaf or something. Don’t know where though.

Right or Left Handed: Right

Surgery: Nope.

Sport: Well...I used to play a little bit of Basketball back in school, but I’m terrible at it. My favourite sport to watch though is Ice Hockey (though I never get to watch it). And the sport(?) I actually do enjoy playing is badminton, though I haven’t played that in years.

Vacation: I can’t really afford much right now, but currently, I really want to go camping.

Pair of Tennis Shoes: What about them?

More General

Eating: (favourite food?) Um...pizza....fried chicken...my Mom’s lasagna. 

Drinking: Tap water still.

I’m About To: Find another Hetalia mmd on youtube to watch.

Waiting For: Information on Hetalia Day 2017. Seriously, I kind of want to go to one this year but there’s no information ANYWHERE. ;~;  Everything I find is for last year? Do people not start planning for it til the month of?

Want: To win the lottery, even though I don’t play it. 

Get Married: Maybe someday, if I can find a person who won’t get tired of me and become enamoured with them.

Career: Heck. I don’t know. 

Hugs or Kisses: I’m better at giving hugs. I like hugs. I’ve been told I give good hugs, but I worry about giving hugs though because I don’t really want to let go most times, I just really like hugs. But I don’t dislike kisses either! I’m just...still a novice at those...>///<

Lips or Eyes: Um...I guess eyes? Some people’s eyes are just so pretty, it’s unfair. 

Shorter or Taller: Um...like preference in a partner? I’ve discovered to me it doesn’t matter if I truly like them- but I do have to really like them. 

Older or Younger: Assuming this is also a preference, um...I don’t think it really matters to me as long as they’re decently close to my age. Like I’d never date a minor, hell no, but I don’t think I could ever date someone 10 years older then me either, I find that prospect equally unsettling. 

Nice Arms or Nice Stomach: This depends, what definition of ‘nice’ are we using here? 

Hookup or Relationship: Uh...Relationship. Like I dunno, I probably could hookup with someone and date them with no sexual stuff? But they’d have to understand I wouldn’t have romantic feelings for them, at least at first. They could develop once I get to know them better, but then again, they might not- and I refuse to get serious with anyone I can’t truly feel for, because while dating might be fun, a person deserves to be loved better than that.

Troublemaker or Hesitant: I’m a hesitant person, though I wish I was a troublemaker sometimes.

Kissed A Stranger: No, but I’ve been kissed by a stranger (not on the lips though).

Drank Hard Liquor: Hrm, attempting to and failing. I prefer sweet tasting drinks.

Lost Glasses/Contact Lenses: Oh man I HATE misplacing my glasses. However I’ve always been able to find them. I’ve not yet lost any of my contact lenses.

Turned Someone Down: Yes. A few times, for various reasons. 

Sex On First Date: Highly doubtful.

Broken Someone’s Heart: ....yeah...it wasn’t pretty, but it had to be done.

Had Your Heart Broken: Yes. I believed I was flying over the atmosphere and that we could take on the world together, and then suddenly I was dropped, falling down and burning, and I landed in an ocean, unable to make sense of which way was up, which way was down. The healing process was like trying to find some way to stay afloat among the waves and not get dragged back under when you looked up and saw them still flying without you. And then, you find land, and you’re able to stand on your own two feet again. And all you can do is just keep walking. Been Arrested: Nope. Been pulled over twice though.

Cried When Someone Died: Yes.

Fallen For A Friend: Eh, sorta.

Do you believe in…

Yourself: Ha, no.

Miracles: I wish.

Love At First Sight: I believe it’s possible, just not possible for everyone.

Santa Clause: I believe in Finland.

Kiss on the First Date: It depends on how well it goes and how comfortable I am I suppose. I don’t believe that it should be required or expected, no. 

Angels: In a manner of speaking. 

Other…

Current Best Friends’ Name(s): @queensolaria is my best friend since high school, and I don’t think any of my other in-person friends have tumblrs xP. Of course there’s other tumblr users I consider friends too though but like

Eye Color:  My eyes are such a dark brown that they look black. Kinda boring. I’m not a fan of them.

Favorite Movie:....Princess Bride, probably. Shut up. 

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ALL 20 PLEASE :)

aww thanks pal :)

1. meaning behind my url: i used to have this old best friend who i was really close with, and every time we’d asked her dad somethin like “how are you doing” “how was work” or “how do i look” he’d always answer with “average at best” and i just loved that guy he was so funny i miss him

2. a picture of me: tbh im a dummy and i can’t figure out how to insert a pic of me in here so i’ll post one later (or just go under tagged “me” i think there are some old pics of me)

3. tattoos i have: none but i want a lil simple one like the outline of a flower or somethin like that

4. last time i cried & why: two days ago bc of a bad dream 

5. piercings i have: I just got my ears pierced a week ago!!!! it’s my first piercing and i know it’s so simple it’s just my lobes but im so happy i finally did it and i love them 

6. favorite band: hands down phoenix i’ve loved them since 7th grade, i might be seeing them in a couple months and im so excited. i literally have a dog named after them. pls check them out

7. biggest turn off: probably either if the person is rude or if they have like bad dental hygiene?? idk i used to date this guy who never brushed his teeth and he was rude and i basically hated him

8. top 5 (subject): u didnt give me a subject so i’ll just do my top 5 fav things in general :)

my first fav thing is def Quinn ily i know u wont see this bc i’ve had u blocked on tumblr since 8th grade out of embarrassment but luv u ur my fav thing

 my dog phoenix she’s the best dog ever

my friends: i have the best friends in the world and i couldnt ask for anything better!!

music!! for obvious reasons music is just the shit u know

writing: i havent done it in so long but i’m starting up again and i love it!!

9. tattoos i want: lil flower thing i mentioned earlier

10. biggest turn ons: sense of humor!!! being gentle!!! pretty eyes!!!! payin attention to me & being nice!!!

11. age: 16 turnin 17 real soon

12. ideas of a perf date: goin somewhere cool like a park or a lil cafe or a museum and taking cute pictures of each other and holding hands and telling stories to each other about our pasts or fun times we’ve had together 

13. life goals: go to college in nyc, write music or a book or star in a movie or write and direct one, to tell my story somehow and make a difference in peoples lives, be successful and happy 

14: piercings i want: kinda want my belly button pierced but first i’d want a flat stomach so i just have to lose a few pounds real quick

15. relationship status: i’m that really annoying girl who won’t shut up about her boyfriend!!!!!!

16. fav movie: ok usually i’d say something like my babysitter’s a vampire (truly a MASTERPIECE) or chicken little but more realistically i’d say baby driver bc i saw that last month and that shit MOVED me it was just a great film and i could talk for hours about all the great shit in that movie but i’ll move on now

17. a fact about my life: this is kinda sad but i just love to travel lol i’ve been to nyc 5 times and i’ve been to hilton head 15 times in my 16 years of life, that’s not a rlly interesting fact but i think it’s pretty impressive tbh

18. phobia: heights, planes, all the basic stuff but i also FREAK OUT sometimes when certain ppl touch me?? i think that’s like an abuse thing but idk it counts as a phobia kinda i guess??

19. middle name: I LOVE MY MIDDLE NAME so much it’s Jane after my beautiful grandmother who i miss so much and i just luv it bc it reminds me of her and it’s so classy and cute i just 

20. anything u want 2 ask: please ask me more stuff i love doing things like this!!!!

[subjectsilver]

I wish i was mr happy.

here a story for you - i can't see anything because i got drunk and didn't properly close my contact case then i kicked them on the floor while i was sleeping...now I'm blind as fuck because i have only 1 contact left and don't want to wear just one... i asked my mom to send some like a week ago but she didn't so I'm going to be blind until tuesday afternoon....btw  being blind is not fun because what I've learned is that when you can't see you have one less distraction for your thoughts -  laid in bed all day with thoughts of suicide and refused to leave so i didn't hurt myself. eventually it passed as i took a shower and cried for a little

Monday night i had a dream that emma was bragging to me about her next boyfriend and my response was “HA HA tbh i don give a fuck and they shouldn't either (i was pointing at josh and hand)” bc she was bragging about how her life is set and all planned out now and i was like tbh they should be just as disappointed in you as i am for planning out your life because thats not happiness i was like spontaneity  is happiness - and thats not who you are you are spontaneous not this future planner girl - and then she got up and ran to me started crying and hitting me and hugging me and she was like i wanna be with you and i started crying and i was like no i can't do that right now

i woke up sobbing and soaked in sweat

TUESDAY i had a dream that i was on the side of this road in this own wish grass field with my mom and grandma and suddenly josh smith showed up and i distinctly remember him wearing a white shirt with horizontal orange stripes one inch thick and all the trees around me had n leaves and i went to climb one so i could pee off of it and my mom climbed up and pushed me off and i woke up.

i had a second dream that night that was at a are sremmurd concert except it wasn't at a large venue it was some basement looking type place and it was some random artist that was complete trash i went to this board that had facts about the show and i saw that the show was put on by this guy who was famous in history for his tragedies  - so i think the show was suppose to emulate some trash event in history but it as modern day rap and it was god awful.

WEDNESDAY i had a dream that i ate this caesar salad then i couldn't stop spying out lettuce from my mouth....kinda like  how a clown pulls scarves out continuously, i just kept pulling out mouthful sizes of lettuce it was extremely weird, I've never had a dream like it before

this week started off decent but then went downhill tbh.. when I'm not actively doing something to distract me i literally just sit and  my own head until i tilt off the face of the planet. i hate how much i think about dying and death in general i just can't escape the thoughts. there are multiple times a day or a week that i feel so numb and i just want to hurt myself just so i can feel something physically not really sure if it makes a lot of sense but its like an addictive feeling t me...its like a craving like cigarettes like i want to hurt myself so badly sometimes i just want to see myself bleed.

its really sad when i think aboutt it

when you think thoughts in your head i feel like generally its your own voice that you hear your thoughts in and u are consciously generating these thoughts.... sometimes when i get low i hear a voice in my head that ins my own and like it just appears and I'm not really sure if its just there or if I'm generating it..because when i catch it finally it goes away...but whatever it tells me is usually horrible and downs the fuck out of me and tilts me and makes me feel so small.

6 days into taking prozac one or two weeks to go.....havent really been eating - nothing new i have noticed tho that when you're skinny and don't need a lot to fill up you save so much money on food. i bought 2 chippotl bowls and i got 4 meals out of it.

i think that I'm going to try harder to stay away. maybe less snapchat stories - and less soundcloud reposting of songs because like my ex can hate me but for her to actually move soon i feel like i need to just become a memory to her and maybe thats not for e to say but i feel like she wants to move on from me and doesn't like me and even though its the exact opposite of what i want ill try to give her that.

its actually so annoying to type when you can't even see the letters of the keys when ur mac sits 18 inches from your face. i have to pull the laptop super close to my face if i think i made a mistake so i can correct it. even though i literally laid in bed all day i still kinda feel tired...im also trying to get 8 hours of sleep a night bc my mom said it'll make me feel better -  well that and I'm not really trynna have many episodes of forgetting 30 minutes of my life by zoning out into a sleep or day dream.

i had so many thoughts during the week for this moment where i sit down and type it all back to myself but now that I'm sitting ere I'm just kind of drawing a blank.

lief is just crazy for me right now.... its just such a weight on my back and its crushing me and suffocating me and drowning me

when i get down i feel like I'm a completely different person.. when I'm up or even bc I'm never really up killing myself makes zero sense to me...but when I'm really low i feel like its the only thing that makes sense like it is my destiny. 

i laid in bed and watch batman and youtube and listened to hella music toady it was pretty relaxing ig guess except not rule because i was role low and had a ton of anxiety until i started watching batman after i took a hot shower.

my whole family on my dads side is actually in NC right now... they drove thru the city I'm in to go on vacation to the beach...wouldve loved to go to the beach with the little ones but i guess they didn't feel like picking me up or thought i was busy or something, maybe didn't have the room idk.

loose rocks gotta fall its part of the climb...i am a few peoples loose rock and i understand  that as much sense as it doesn't make i can still see where it does. but i need to start my own climb. the thing that gets me is that i feel like if I'm a loose rock to someones life they are a loose rock to mine bc thats not the people i want in my life but i do understand....idk ?fate? ?trial?

that whole paragraph probably didn't even make sene I'm  not rule sure how to convey it and i can't even see what I'm saying so whatever...

oh shit i almost forgot that i watched so many fucking space views today it was crazy dude space is wild and we probably live in a snow globe also the earth is flat.

i hope this week is better than the last. i really do

“every breathe that i inhaled felt like i was trying to push 150 pounds with the movement of my lungs” -cam meekins

[homesickheadaches-blog]

Working on sharing my thoughts

1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? I can’t tell if i miss my ex or not, I guess I’m also always anxious so that just ???

2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? Not recently

3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? No hopefully they share tbh

4: Do you find it easy to trust others? No not really

5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? Oversleeping like usual

6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? No one probably, or my best friend

7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? Probably get really depressed and just awful emotionally in general

8: Are you close with your dad? Haha n o

9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? Unfortunately no

10: What are you listening to? Demon days by Gorillaz 11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? Lemonade

12: Do you like hickeys? F u c k yes

13: What time do you go to bed? Anywhere from 8 PM to 3 AM

14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? A couple I guess

15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? Yeah

16: Do you always answer your texts? I usually do but sometimes no

17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? No I don’t think so

18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? Today

19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? Not right now

20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? Probably something about my pillow being soft

21: Is anyone else in the room with you? My cat is

22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? Yeah

23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? Nah, I’m still as anxiety ridden and sad as I was then 24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? Yes…

25: In the past week, have you cried? O h GOSH let me tell ya 26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? Light blue

27: Do people ever call you by your last name? My theatre teacher does sometimes

28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? Yeah 29: Do you have a best friend? Yeah 30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? I see it every day and yeah it kinda hurts, more of a numb ache now

31: Who was your last call/text message from? My mom I think

32: Are you mad at anyone? Lowkey but nothing outrageous

33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Nope

34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? 16

35: How many more days until your birthday? A lot, it’s in November

36: Do you have any summer plans yet? I might be visiting dad this summer with my siblings

37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? Yeah

38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? Yes but it’s nothing big

39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? …maybe

40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Nah

41: Do you think age matters in relationships? Really big age gaps matter but a few years apart doesn’t really matter

42: Are you available? Yeah

43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? I’m still in high school but like, one

44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? Belly button piercing

45: Do you believe exes can be friends? Yes but it really depends on the people

46: Do you regret anything? Regret seems rather useless to be because what’s done is done

47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? Chicken Ramen

48: Did you ever lose a best friend? I’m elementary school I guess

49: Was your last kiss a mistake? No 50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? Because I don’t really romantically like anyone right now

51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? Maybe during one of my recent breakdowns/ anxiety attacks maybe but I do not know for sure

52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? No… 53: What was the last thing you ate? Some chips 54: Did you get any compliments today? My mom said my hair looked nice

55: Where are you going on your next vacation? Grandma’s house

56: Do you own anything from other countries? I have a little change purse from Mexico

57: Are most of your friend guys or girls? Guys I think

58: Where have you lived most of your life? Half in Colorado half in Virginia

59: When was the last time you took a long drive? Friday

60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? Nope

61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house? Haha no

62: Who do you text the most? I don’t text often but either my mom or my best friend

63: What was the last movie you saw? Star Wars the empire strikes back probably 64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? I don’t have a bf but in the future I’d like to think it would be them liking me more

65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011? Lmfao none

66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you? By a couple months yeah

67: Do you curse around your parents? Around my mom

68: Are you happy with where you live? Heck no

69: Picture of yourself? Maybe later

70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships? I’m monogamous

71: Have you ever been dumped? …yeah… 72: What do you most like about making out? Being close to the person, the giddiness of it, playing with the other person’s hair and kissing and biting their neck

73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with? Nope

74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other? The other person

75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive? Hair and eyes

76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? No one I think

77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour? Nope

78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name? Nope

79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face? Seeing other people be happy

80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already? Depends …. maybe

81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you? Yeah

82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush? I tell maybe one or two

83: Do you miss your last sweetie? Lowkey maybe

84: Last time you slow danced with someone? I’ve never slowdanced before :^(

85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met? Nah

86: How can I win your heart? Stick with me through my shyness and have a good sense of humor and a nice personality 87: What is your astrological sign? Scorpio

88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM? Sleeping and or sleep walking again

89: Do you cook? Yes, it’s really fun

90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? Nope

91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship? Oh gosh yeah but I’m scared of one at the same time

92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly? I prefer to date only one person

93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest? Dark hair is really nice to me for some reason

94: Name four things that you wish you had! 1. Mental stability 2. Lemonade 3. A will to live 4. A person I completely trust and feel the motivation to consistently talk to

95: Are you a player? No

96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day? No

97: Are you a tease? A little

98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? Nope

99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone? Yeah..

100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? Probably

101: Hugs or Kisses? Both :^D

102: Are you too shy to ask someone out? It depends, I am really fucking shy though

103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Personality

104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? FUCK YES I LOVE IT I have no idea why but if we’re dating and you call me babe I will melt

105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it? No, I’d feel like a dick

106: Do you flirt a lot? No I am way too shy

107: Your last kiss? In March of last year

108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012? In the last five years I have kissed o e person

109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month? No :^(

110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be? Not sure in all honesty

111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next? No

112: Does someone like you currently? I think so ?? Maybe

113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone? There’s certainly something there, not sure if it’s positive or just destroying me it’s sitting there

114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? Serious relationships are definitely preferable

115: Ever made out with just a friend? Nope

116: Are you happier single or in a relationship? Maybe in a relationship I guess, I’ve only ever been in one

QUESTIONS CREDIT http://versusthequeer.tumblr.com/post/32119481015